SLEEPLESS!!
wow!! it's been a while since i updated my tabulas.. good thing it's still working...
anywei here goes my entry...
Did you ever have a sleepless night? hmmm..where things go wrong you wanna sleep but you can't damn!! don't you just hate it? it's like you're thinking of something whether it's love,friendship,things about life,future and other stuff.. well it just happened to me last night until now i can't sleep.. whew!! 
hmmm.. i really dunno why i can't sleep. coz these days i really can't sleep well even though it's our sembreak.. i just can't to have 8 hrs. of straight sleep.. actually i wanna take sleeping pills but they said it has some side effects so i'm quite a bit scared bout that... anyway moving on.. i can't seem to move on with my ("EX"
.. i mean there are times that i can't remember her but there are time that you wanna be with her. Without a formal break-up it's really hard!!! man!!! it seems like i'm the one who's at fault... can you believe it??? it's like when i left to go to U.S. we were fine.. but when i'm already in the states things are goin a bit "shaky" like she won't answer the phone coz she's in class.. i understand that but what is 2-3 min. to say hello, i love you, are you ok? or i miss you.. but i got no answer, then there's a time when she was at a mall or convention i think and it's raining, when she picked up the phone she said "i gotta go now coz it's raining, i wanna go home" we were talking for about 40 sec. wow!!!.. doesn't she realize how hard it is to call from the states to her cell with using those phone cards.. and sometimes these phone cards are cheating coz it's like they have a limited amount of time in cellphone and ina landline.. sometimes when you can't connect to the number.. you will lose the amount of time that you have.. for example.. a $5 phonecard will let you have a 50 min. call on a landline and a 20 min. call on a cell phone so let's say you can't connect to the phone that you are reaching or he/she wont answer it.. they will still deduct 5-10 min. (estimated) to your amount of time.. so basically when he/she won't answer your call and also sometimes they can't hear you so you have to redial it. it will deduct till there no more amount of time left.. hope you all understand the explanation.. anyways moving on.. i spent about $35 for 2 weeks just to call her.. we've only had 3 decent conversations the rest were disaster wherein she won't answer my calls or she has to hurry to get home... she knew that i was coming back but she didn't knew when.. so when i came back to suprise her.. when i got home i quickly called her up.. she was like "I'm still sleepy talk to you later" WOW!!! what a nice greeting!!! it didn't last for 15 sec. i mean "HELLO" who am i to you?? anyway i let that passed away and i slept because i still have a jetlag coz can't sleep on the plane.. i was too excited to see her.. so afternoon came woke up about 4 p.m. then i called her.. then unexpectedly she suprised me she said " can we just be friends?, i'm breaking up with you.." i really dunno what to say since still have jetlag i was speechless.. i said "i came back for you leaving my dreams there in the states.., i lied to my parents just to come back here.." she just said that it was family problems and she can't tell me bcoz it is confidential..
that's it for now.. i'll just continue the story tomorrow... i feel sleepy now being to let it out this story... thanks for reading people...
bye bye for now.. be safe... :D
sad but true..... damn!! can't find her e-mail..... Nasa friendster xa pero di ko xa masendan ng message kasi ung nasa personal network pede lang mkakita at mkasend ng messages xa kanya...... arrrrghhh!!!! but i aint gonna give up... I'm gonna find her e-mail no matter what...... well what else am i goin to say???..... wish me luck in finding her....